Anxiety is the Dizziness of Freedom - Ted Chiang

"If the same thing happens in branches where you acted differently, then you aren’t the cause."

 

"She had lied about the pills being Vinessa’s, but her lie wasn’t what pushed Vinessa off the edge, what turned her into a delinquent. That was the direction Vinessa was always going to move in, no matter what anyone else did. And Dana had spent years and thousands of dollars trying to make amends for what she’d done, trying to fix Vinessa’s life. Maybe she didn’t need to do that anymore."

 

 

현재가 불만족스러울 때마다 그때 그런 결정을 하지 않았다면 지금 조금 더 낫지 않을까 후회하는 순간들이 있다.

'Perhaps, this might be the direction I was always going to move in, no matter what I did.' 라고 생각하면
한결 마음이 가볍지 않을까.
내가 할 수 있는 최선은 지금 이 순간에 충실하고 오늘 내게 주어진 모든 것에 감사하는 것일뿐.   

 

 

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FYI) In 1844, Soren Kierkegaard wrote of anxiety as being the ‘dizziness of freedom’, the dizzying effect of looking into the boundlessness of one’s own possibilities. Without anxiety there would be no possibility and therefore no capacity to grow and develop as a human being.